“To be or not to be; that is the question. “

Am I an atheist? I always wanted to be. It seems so simple. What is holding me back? Why can’t I see the black and white of it all and just embrace atheism?

Well, there is a little glitch that keeps me from jumping over the brink. It’s that pesky little thing called “life”. Life can be so small and so fragile…don’t kid yourself, now. Life is rambunctious, selfish, egotiscal, self replicating, defiant, energetic little or large thing we can identify with the following characteristics. Give me an example of life that doesn’t reproduce, Give me an example of life that doesn;t mutate. Give me an example of life that, if needed, doesn’t protect it’s young even to the point of complete self-sacrifice. There are none. So, it’s safe to say that life is an entity that reproduces , protects itself and its kind and attempts to better itself. Why?

Yes, I said “why”? It’s easy, maybe, to see that all the amino acids, oxygen, water, etc. just by chance, happened to get together in one place to create the first living thing. But, at some point in this one-celled beings life it had to say to itself, “hey, this feels pretty good! Rather than die and bring life back to zero again let’s find a way to reproduce and make more of us!” It had to make a decision that the best way to insure itself  continuance was  to sometimes step aside for a better stronger smarter species that had mutated. What altruism! Hardly! At some point in time the inferior being had to “give up the fight” of course when they became extinct that was easy. Nature is teeming with stories where the deficient weak young gets hind tit or no tit at all to insure the survival 9f the strongest. Of course humans, as a civilized species do just the opposite. We spend fortunes and many hours to insure that a deformed offspring  has the best quality of life possible. With the teeming masses consuming our food and water at an accelerated rate it may be a luxery we have to give up one day.

What happens to life that creates the urge for continuance? What makes life so self-centered, so egocentric that it is always shouting me!, me!, me! me! So, tell me atheist, what is your explanation? It is easy to see why the Bible portrays Jesus as the good shepherd because it has the appearance that we are being nutured along by some unfathomable force greater or maybe just a part of., ourselves. Maybe life is one huge collective self-regulating consciousness. Maybe we have mis-defined life. Maybe we are more along the Gaia principal where the earth, our solar system or our galaxy is the collective intelligent regulating body. Or, maybe we need to take a really giant step back and look at the universe.

But then again, maybe we are micromanaged by some vast kingdom of gods and demigods. Maybe every living planet has a set of religions and legends of how they came to be.

Believe what you want, just explain to me why it is so natural as a species to have the need to survive and better ourselves.

Carl James-1-25-14